on friendship and love | 2005-09-22

its become so bad, so fast, that i really don't know what to say, or do. deep inside i am so afraid of facing this. i've thought about shutting myself out of your life, keeping you away from the terror that is me, letting it cool down, disappearing... but how? how do you walk away from something that has become such an inherent part of you for the past seven years, that has built you up to the person that you are today, something no special that no one else could ever understand?

so many things remind me of you. each and every one of you. all the memories that i will never finish listing. so many promises we made and so many dreams we planned together. our private jokes, our secret codes. 10th october 2010? united as one? our nunnery dreams, or the rocking our babies in their prams, watching our kids grow up together.

here is me, in all my vulnerability. i miss you and i love you. so many things mean so much to me. and life is really so much more than what we are going through right now.

deep down inside i have faith; i know that there is so much more between us, so many special things we have shared that no one could or would ever understand, this bond that nothing would ever break. look deep inside, i am still me. i am trying to let the person inside of me, the person that you once knew, re-emerge once again. strip me of all the corruption and the blackened influences and here you will find her, i never have and never will desert or forsake you in your time of need.

i don't think its ever farewell. and if you ever need me here you will find me, a friend waiting for you.

kiss me quick!! at 2:24 a.m.

call me overly sentimental but | 2005-08-14

i always knew moving house was hard work, but i never expected it to be this painful. it breaks my heart packing everything i've collected over the past 19 years, chucking them into bags and boxes.

it pains me that i'll never see the same view from my window again. today my mom told me she stared at the sea for an hour this morning when she woke up. and just now, me and my little brother cried together, while we were talking about how we grew up here.

how do you move away from something you've known all your life? its not just a house, its my whole life - my life of memories; my drawers chucked full of little notes my friends and i exchanged in primary school, in secondary school, throughout jc; my desk full of presents from everyone who ever loved me; the place where i learnt to walk, to talk, to read, to grow up; the stairs where i fell and sprained my ankle; the bed where i cried on so many nights, where i had my fair share of fun; the place where my family and i had so many quarrels and yet each time we made up; the rooms where my sisters and i had our pillow fights, our barbie doll playing, our late night talks about life; the place where my family grew and where i truly discovered what love was.

pardon the previous lengthy paragraph, but it is for myself more than anything. and when everything is taken away from you, what you have left holding onto is your memory. it hurts but i am doing it - really, growing up toughens you so much, and i guess this is part of what life is all about.

kiss me quick!! at 11:59 p.m.

not only | 2005-08-11

hello! i know i haven't been a good girl and haven't been writing on either blogs (alright i've kinda given up on the new one thanks to my dismal html skills), but hey i'm back! yay! just an update to let you darling children know that i'm alive and kicking (only the naughty boys though).

lets see, i've been terribly busy with shifting into my new place, failing my driving practical test (erps), doing various smu stuff, meeting up with friends who're gonna enter uni or are back in s'pore for a visit, and of course spending lots of time with the people i love! lots more but maybe when i feel like it the pics will speak for themselves :)

oh and also 2 secs ago i just wrote a poem, which i quite like! (for the time being that is haha.) i'll share but i don't know if you'll get it or like it, haha.

some times
in the monotone passing of the colorful
in the silent crashing of my chaos
i taste your kiss
laced with the sweetly sickness of the cigarette
tracing beyond all power,
truth,
only,

and eternity.
it is like nothing i have ever
or ever have

and the cigarette -
the smoke it swirls
with the last graze of your lips
and then burns into what is known as

nothing.

kiss me quick!! at 1:44 a.m.

charlie cnd che chocolate cactory cuddles clara | 2005-08-05

oh johnny, why must you be so beautiful?



everytime i watch a movie of his i never fail to fall deeply in love again and again. nothing surpasses willy wonka this time! its official, henceforth he will be the only one i will ever love. :)

kiss me quick!! at 4:29 a.m.

AMERICA'S NEXT TOP MODEL | 2005-07-26

ooh yeah together with SATC, simpsons, and spongebob, this ranks as one of my favorite shows. henceforth i'm staying home on all monday nights! all hail beauty!

anyway, visitor number 10 000 didn't tag, so i'm closing down this blog (excuses haha). i'll only tell friends my new link, and as time goes by i'll see if i wanna post it up here.

p.s. am also aghast at how un-intellectual i manage to sound on this blog, oopsie. haha.

alright farewell my loves! you should have seen this last post coming! i guess that's one less blog for you voyeurs to intrude upon, haha. watch this space if you want, but its up to you. :)

kiss me quick!! at 10:28 p.m.

it's like betta than that, i like that ya'll | 2005-07-25

hello! can visitor number 10 000 please tag, whoever you are? it'll be fun to know!

in other matters, i just realised i've got quite a nice income this month for various odd jobs!

1. customer service at library@orchard: yeah surprise surprise i'm still working there you know! yay. think the pay'll be about 300. this week i'm working weds and thursday 1-5pm, so friends come visit if you can :)

2. tutoring this 20 yr old guy A level history! thats 400 bucks for 4 sessions (my notes included). woohoo

3. filming for this local director's short film. i'm supposed to be some guy's fantasy girl dressed in a red bikini, and they're paying me 100 for 2 scenes. just had the shoot yesterday and it was pretty fun! i just love having hair and make up people and crew tend to me with such attentiveness. reminds me of my true files acting stint, hahaha.

4. NICE LUNGS. wearing a "nice lungs" tee and walking around the clubs in MS giving out "best after sex: quit smoking!" tissues. so ironic haha. we have to say this to people too : "quitting smoking improves blood flow to your sex organs and gives you a better sex life!" hahaha. but never mind. they're paying 5 bucks per hr.

so anyway i suppose that totals to about a 1000 bucks! it isn't much, but i'm not complaining cos all my jobs are so fun! :)

on another completely unrelated note: the old feeling is back. uh oh.

p.s. i know i've been clubbing waaay too much when i find i'm actually liking R n B songs. on repeat on my playlist now: it's like that by jermaine dupri ft mariah carey, and ciara's one two step. ooooops shoot me :p

kiss me quick!! at 9:08 p.m.

oh. my. god. | 2005-07-23

alright i figured the As ended somewhere around end november 2004 right. and now it's end july 2005. school's starting end august (22 august to be exact), so thats about.... NINE BLOODY MONTHS OF HOLIDAYS.

and my question is. WHERE DID THE FREAKING LONG HOLIDAYS GO TO?!!? oh man i could have made and given birth to a baby in that period. i better come up with a list of accomplishments soon to console myself.

i have about a month left and omg i am going to die of inertia. i adore my current lifestyle ok! i better make full use of the remaining time. stop wasting time with rubbish people and spend more time with loved ones before this thing called school consumes me up whole.

fuck it. seriously.

kiss me quick!! at 5:54 a.m.

for at least two hours the Girl loved him | 2005-07-21

i've never been much of a mobile phone kinda girl (just ask anyone i treat my phones like dirt hahaha), but this time I AM IN LOVE WITH MY NEW PHONE!

anyway he's called Deideras (dee-eah-der-rass), a made up name. just because it was the first thing that popped into my head, and because i feel like it :)

the hot couple and our baby boy in bed! HAHAHAHA. ok actually just put dei there to show you how tiny he is in comparison to asher (my ibook).

close up. gorgeous isn't he! on second thoughts dei should be a girl cos only girls can be that gorgeous, but too bad i love boys. hahahaha. oh in case you're wondering, my wallpaper is this movable kungfu man. hiakk!!

p.s. don't ask me about dei's model and whatever. im still an IT idiot! but i think its samsung mtv limited edition. its a slide phone, if that helps. but please try not to get it if you can, im particularly fussy about people having the same things as me :)

p.p.s. check out the newly updated XXXtees site!! and support wont ya? much love for that.

p.p.p.s. after taking a hiatus from photo-whoring for so long, my iphoto is just bursting with tons of wonderful unpublished pics! omg. okay hang in there, i promise ill put pics up soooooooon.

kiss me quick!! at 12:49 a.m.

everything's changing and i don't feel the same | 2005-07-20

ooh this is exciting! my blog counter's finally gonna reach 10 000 after almost 7 months. lousy i know, but never mind. i don't like too many people reading my blog anyway.

speaking of which, i've discovered that alot of weird people i don't know are reading this. hello there! but please don't form opinions of me purely from my blog ok? i'm not just your wild party girl la. sure i don't lie here and this blog is me, but its also one-faceted, in my favour. there ARE other sides to me too, of course. just that like a typical scorpio, i'm not gonna let you in that easily :)

maybe as a reward for the 10 000 page loads, i'm gonna change my blog address. i have too many memories to move away from, and so many things to move towards. let these past 7 months be a great memory of fun love wildness play, but school is gonna start soon and my new life i think is gonna begin.

plus i don't have pink hair anymore, haha. i've never liked changes, they're so scary, but sometimes they're inevitable. i just really hope i don't change into someone i don't recognise, cos i really do love the person that i am alot. heh.

on the subject of changes, my family's moving house! next month i think. will post pics of my beautiful new home when its done. its still gonna be in the east (i'm an east girl forever more! and i'll only date east boys haha), but i am so gonna miss my old place.

i've been living here since i was born, and i don't think i'll ever forget the walks to parkway (1267 steps away), the bus ride from suntec (one bus stop away), the neighbours, the pool where i held parties by and where i learnt to swim.

when i think of the beach, i think of how its almost tradition that i walk the 5 minute walk with my boyfriends, from my place there. when i think of national day, i think of how i could always watch the fireworks from my window each year.

i'll miss the city view and the sea view from my windows, the familiar creaks of the house at night, the vandalism on my windows done by yours truly, but most of all i'll miss the sense of familiarity that this house gives. i'll always feel safe in this place no matter what time of the night or how dark it is, and i know that it's gonna be hard to find a place that can ever replace it.

kiss me quick!! at 5:38 a.m.

songs that make me cry | 2005-07-15

that day on the mrt, angie by the rolling stones started playing on jude (my ipod), and i started sobbing. everyone thought i was mad. i'm so glad my name isn't angie or i would have jumped off the train.

not that there's anything for me to be sad about, but the song is just so heart-breaking that there was no way i could have stopped myself from crying.

kiss me quick!! at 3:09 p.m.

18 and life | 2005-07-13

at the beach with the stars, the sea, and my lover :)

kiss me quick!! at 1:37 a.m.

i love midnight cycling! | 2005-07-08

p.s: just cringed after reading my last 2 entries. sorry! just had such an exciting past week and thought i'd share. don't worry though, not in the mood to write much/post much photos these days, so i'll spare you the agony of reading about my life :)

kiss me quick!! at 5:36 a.m.

my spanish boyfling oops | 2005-07-07

haha since everyone's blogging about how london won the olympic bid, i shall try to add in my share:

last night us girls went club hopping, and at momo (fabulous place btw!), we met the spanish delegates from the madrid olympic committee. they were really friendly and gorgeous, so we all left the club, went for supper at newton, and followed them back to their fullerton hotel room to uhh..... play monopoly till dawn. hahahaha.

the spanish guys flew back to madrid this morning. will post pics of last night soon, if i feel like it, heh heh.

k off to go midnight cycling at the beach with dino now! london might have won the 2012 oylmpic bid, but madrid's king of my heart! oh and switzerland too :)

kiss me quick!! at 11:37 p.m.

alright you're only young once | 2005-07-05

me and pq have had lots of exciting eye-opening adventures, but i don't think any surpasses last night's. it involved well, 3 glasses of white wine and a glass of red for each of us, a 29 year old married lawyer, his guy friend, and his marriage bed with his cute baby daughter in the next room.

shan't elaborate but its proven to me yet again that all guys think with their dicks. fuck off! don't worry though, i remain faithful to my bf, as always. hahaha.

kiss me quick!! at 5:20 p.m.

y tu mama tambien | 2005-07-01

just came back from shopping at jb with my wonderful shopping khakis - dvd shopping that is. hahaha it was so fun, and now im loaded with tons and tons of dvds! yay. i can already see myself cuddling up at home with bf for the next month just watching dvds. what does that spell? l-o-s-e-r. hahahaha.

anyway on the way back something amazing happened. our car got stopped by the police for a thorough check, and one of them opened my bag and found this whole stack of pirated dvds staring into his face. i thought, "shit he's so gonna confiscate them and gimme a huge scolding!!"

but guess what? he just very kindly shuffled through them, put them back neatly into my bag, and gave me a nice big grin. huh?????????? thank you singapore police force!!!!!!! :) must have something to do with the bulk of the dvds being cartoons, heh heh.

some pics of johor!

group shot at the singapore-malaysia taxi stand! waiting for leo who's soooooo late :p

us girls! thats sean's girlfriend deedee, pq, and me!

us in the cab on the way to johor!

with pq

and leonie

cab shot! what a nice pic :)

trying to look like junkies! actually we're pouting cos we lost the rest hahaha

on a separate note altogether, while working at the library the other day, i saw shane from eye for a guy! he's the ONLY guy in the show who i think is remotely cute. yay. see told you working at the library has its benefits, hahaha. also, other than being able to catch neil gaiman (yay!) for free, a nerdishly-cute irish guy also picked me up, haha.

to top it off, while i was making a library card for him, i realised that he lives on number 16 of my street (i live on number 12). how cool is that?! shall teach him how to play mahjong and infiltrate him with the finer points of singaporean culture. new easties mahjong khaki time!!!

so anyway, enough droning and let me show you what you've all come here to see. are you thinking what i'm thinking B1?? i think i am B2!!! its.... picture time!!!! (okay lame i know, hahahahaha)

* saturday

my pretty new tattoo! twinkle!!!!!

with josh my cuteeee cousin at june's 21st birthday! he's so adorable isn't he. and we both got cool balloons from the balloon woman yay!

*sunday

coffee with yun at cherie's workplace, tcc at milennia :) go visit her k!

* monday

shopping with the girlies at heeren! i know im dressed weirdly hahaha ok i admit i was wearing lerping's jesus is my homeboy shirt :p

*supper with terence and elvis

sitting on terence's bike eating my favorite biscuit balls for supper :)

i was the one riding.....not. hahaha

helmet head!!! on the way home haha helmets make me look gross right!

plus the wind messes up my hair grrrr!!!

but i love bike rides :)

*rouge night

off to club in my pretty little black zara dress!!!

in the cab with the boyyyys. weiming's back from new york baby!

with cheechie

and gabriel at rouge

and they're all high and stoned! as usual i was the only girl and the only sane one :p

*monday

at big o with the girlfriends! gorgeous cakes yumyum

tzingie! and i think she looks like lum may yee dont you :)

we were out having supper and we saw this GIGANTIC cockroach omg!!! i'm trying to look terrified and lp's trying to bite it i think.

check this out! it was like 4am and there were no cars. we completed an amazing feat by walking from bedok to kembangan haha!

*



alright! those were the pics of last week. sigh i'm having such a fun time now i'm so worried that when uni starts in about 2 months i'll have major inertia :(

k bye children! sorry girls no pics of my baby this time cos we decided to keep some things private! grin.

"everytime our eyes meet,
this feeling inside me is almost more than i can take

baby when you touch me, i can feel how much you love me
and it just blows me away."
-amazed, lonestar

kiss me quick!! at 1:17 a.m.

dinosaurs are my favorite food yumyum | 2005-06-26

hiya children! its 6am and im hyper as usual! just came back from clubbing with the guys, will post up pics soon promisepromise. its getting creepy that i'm going to rouge every weekend! its been like 5 weekends in a row already omigod.

here's a song for my baby!

"See the pyramids along the nile
Watch the sunrise on a tropic isle
Just remember, darling, all the while
You belong to me

See the marketplace in old algiers
Send me photographs and souvenirs
Just remember when a dream appears
You belong to me...

Fly the ocean in a silver plane
See the jungle when it's wet with rain
But remember, darling, 'til you're home again
You belong to me :)"

thats you belong to me, covered by tori amos. another beautifullllllll song that should be on music of the week, oops. and i think love is when you both feel you want to belong to each other so much that there's no burden nor possessiveness. :)

grrrrr! (that was a nocturnal vampire growl from me, cos its 6am after all. haha) nightnight :)



addendum: ugh am pissed off that my tagboard isnt working properly!! all the tags are kinda stagnant. :( might change tagboard soon. just wanted to say: ian and pq, buybuybuy from me! though i might have a taker for history already :) yunnie, you should be really happy cos you looked crap in it haha! and hali: welcome back babe i missed you!

kiss me quick!! at 6:36 a.m.

pink it's the color of passion | 2005-06-24

(n.b. its 4am and just came back from supper, so please excuse the prosaic and also rather prolix entry, haha)

hi guys!!!! because this blog is getting too narcissistic for its own good, today i shall dedicate my blog entry to one of my favorite yet underrated father-figures: the orchard mrt uncle - you know the blind uncle who sits in the tunnel and plays the keyboard? he's called uncle leo :)

we've been walking past him almost everyday since my secondary school days in rgs, and each time we'd always stop and talk to him. gradually we became accquaintances, then friends, then slowly he began calling us his "daughters".

he and his wife auntie serene would always show us lots of care and love: they ask about us all the time, they remember all 10 of us, on our birthdays they'll buy little gifts for us, and on christmas they'll buy us pressies and we'll all sing carols along the tunnel together.

i've always promised them lots of things like buying them presents from my trips abroad and on xmas; sometimes i do, often i don't, but i never ever remember to bring them. nowadays too, i seldom walk past that tunnel, or sometimes i'll be lazy to stop and talk for long.

it feels so bad that i've been such a bad "daughter" to someone who loves me so much - everytime i go "hello uncle!", he breaks into a bright smile and recognizes my voice immediately. i remember giving uncle leo my handphone number YEARS ago when i was in sec 2. just last month i happened to talk to him and he recited my bloody worthless number by heart. omg. and he said "of course i remember it".

i realised i have never asked him when his birthday is; i've never repaid him with enough care. one day i casually said "uncle i'll buy you stuff from XXX (whatever country) when i return!!" and he jokingly went "yeah clara never means it." but still he smiled a big grin and accepts me and loves me for person that i am - all the flippancy, the frivolous promises.......

i promise to be a nicer daughter to uncle leo :) i really love him alot and i appreciate everything he's done for me. and guys next time if you walk past him, go up and talk to him, or say hi ok? :)

*

alright then. check out my music of the week people - i've finally changed it and this time i've really got tons of KICKASS SONGS. now you can't say that reading my blog has no benefits!!! hahahaha

and my new official theme song to replace Clara by The Ataris? PINK BY AEROSMITH (surprise surprise haha). lerping sent it to me online months ago and asked me to listen to it, but i totally forgot that it existed and didn't open the file. hehe oops. until 2 minutes ago. and loved at first listen. OMG its just awesome, i think i'm in love.

now go listen to it and think of me when you do sweeties. :)



Pink it's my new obsession
Pink it's not even a question,
Pink on the lips of your lover, 'cause
Pink is the love you discover

Pink as the bing on your cherry
Pink 'cause you are so very
Pink it's the color of passion
'Cause today it just goes with the fashion

Pink it was love at first sight
Pink when I turn out the light, and
Pink gets me high as a kite
And I think everything is going to be all right
No matter what we do tonight...

Pink it was love at first sight
Pink when I turn out the light
Pink it's like red but not quite
And I think everything is going to be all right
No matter what we do tonight........

kiss me quick!! at 4:17 a.m.

give peace a chance | 2005-06-21

happy father's day! i love daddy alot and i'm daddy's girl forever! :)

hope dad enjoyed himself last night - dino came over to umm, meet my folks and spend the night. everyone loved him and we had such fun cuddling and watching dvds until dad walked in on us messing around in bed. OOPS. hohoho. sorry daddy dearest! and to my baby too who had to endure his wrath ;)

last night at my place. contrary to popular opinion, my room is NOT pink (though i'd like it to be, hahaha). why do we both look so sleepy!

and to appease everyone's who's been asking, here are the pics of the past week which i promised to upload!

*my darling's bday

pretty pic at boat quay! even though i look like a geek, hehe.

us cutting the impromptu cheesecake we got from tcc :) if you look closely you'll realise that the knife is actually a torn piece of cardboard from the cakebox, hahaha

pretty yunnie! we got her an angel bracelet and KURT COBAIN'S JOURNALS.

kd and her boyfriend al-boy!

shots while we were high :)

ron varun and me. i love my minnie mouse green skirt don't you!

with dino's little cousin :)

yup they're comparing who has the biggest pair of eyes. haha who do you think wins?

shots at rouge though not taken very nicely haha.

*fishing trip on sunday

the picnic basket that me and pq painstakingly prepared!!! if you look hard enough you'll see the potato+ham+chicken+egg salad, and the tuna+egg+tomato+ham sandwiches. hahaha. trying to get credit ;)

chillin'out at pasir ris. forgive me for looking like a freak, i had no make up on and i spent the night before at pq's place, preparing aforementioned picnic basket :p

me and kad! having fun fishing under the sweltering heat. yup im in my fisherman's getup, hahaha.

and so was everyone else. we're all trying to look the part!!

fishermen! its quite a pretty place don't you think? anyway after 3 hours we didn't catch anything, and one by one they all left. pq and i were clearly the most patient ones, hahaha

and we were rewarded for our efforts!!!! the fisherman-in-charge pitied us and gave each of us a fish for free. thats my finger you see poking my GIGANTIC fish! we measured it and it was TWO FEET long. actually its cos the fisherman was trying to pick me up pq says (despite me looking like crap that day), but lets leave that story for another time. hahaha

*thursday

nice group shot at sushi tei!

part a ncos! okay chances are you wont understand what i just said haha. check out pq's jealous fingers :p

part b! they claim they're S.H.E. hahahaha ok whatever we all know who's ella eh :)

itadakimas!!!!!!!!!!!! did i spell that right? hahaha i made everyone pose like that cos it looks cute dont you think!!

elainey wq cherie yunnie

went over to leo's studio for awhile after dinner. alright thats such a funny shot!! hahaha

*saturday

des playing for electrico at rock on singapore! check out that tee he's wearing :) thats also william my drum teacher you see in the corner there, haha

hahahaha desmond looks very cute here. and this pic is rather corny actually. :p




alright thats about all i can be bothered to upload! babes if you want more pics ask me to send them to you online k? xoxoxo

p.s. if there's ever any doubt, you're the one now. thanks for being so understanding and trying so hard for us. i love the way you love me baby! and to the best of my ability i'll try not to hurt you and promise to make you happy only :)

kiss me quick!! at 3:25 a.m.

a day in the life of... | 2005-06-19

sometimes things just change without you knowing why, or how, or whether it's for better or worse. i caught a ronin gig today, and the feelings it spurred in me are so drastically different from the previous times i caught their gigs that it scares me.

seeing them onstage brought back memories of the first time i saw lerping (thats levan for you) onstage - the rush of adrenaline i felt, the exhilaration. it was like a totally new thing for me, watching him on stage doing his stuff. when we were dating those feelings changed too - i remember feeling strange each time i went to support him at his gigs, i'd think "is that person prancing around onstage the same guy who kisses me so sweetly, who'd talk to me on the phone every night, send me those sweet sms-es, etc etc etc?" it just seemed so incongruous at the start, i didn't like watching him onstage at first.

gradually though, i grew accustomed to his stage persona, and realised it was pretty consistent with him as a person after all; that made me enjoy seeing him onstage alot, and i think even though he didn't hear it i screamed the loudest for the person i thought i loved and whose dreams i believed in.

and now that everything is over and done with, i guess i'm just numb. watching him perform, i'm clouded with the knowledge of him as a person, with all his flaws. there is no novelty in watching him this time; i've seen that, been there, done that. knowing the person behind the rock and roll, i just can't scream, go wild and i'm un-moved, sadly. i'll always support the ronin guys as friends and for their kickass music, but i guess the feeling is different now; it's unfortunate and sad but it's just like that, and no one can do anything about it.

alright i seldom talk about my feelings regarding such things, but i guess that gave you a glimpse into what it feels like being the so-called girlfriend of a rocker, haha. obviously you know that there's more to this of course, but hmm most things are better left unspoken. :)

on a different note altogether, guess what? i've got a job!!!!! yeah it depresses me each time i have nothing to do, or am at home for a period longer than 24 hours, whichever occurs first, and so to eradicate such feelings i found myself more things to do! heh heh.

ok, no one really believes me when i tell them this, but i'm now a LIBRARIAN! woohoo. working shifts at the orchard library (in taka), so do come down and visit me whenever you're around the area k? don't worry i'm not doing shelving, just mainly library counter work. at least i can console myself that librarians are the stuff of most guys' fantasies (are they really??), and that i can now randomly go "SHHH!" at people. hohohoho. lets see how long i can last in this job :)

in line with my new librarian geek image:

thats me with my new geek specs!! GASP. convincing right??? i know i look gross, but it has no degree, don't worry. i'm hugging on tight to yunnie, at her birthday bash at boat quay last weekend. aww she's so cuteeeee :)

and i made my baby put it on too! we're in the cab, on the way to his place after clubbing at rouge on friday, heh heh. seems like i'm at rouge every weekend!! strange. we're stoned so we look weird :p

thats des with his own geek specs! he's really sweet, he wore our "boys lie" tee to perform for his electrico gig tonight, to help us publicise hahaha. check our tees out HERE!

alrightt! was gonna put on lots more exciting pics but this entry looks super long haha. i'm sorry to everyone you have to wait then! muack muack

kiss me quick!! at 3:20 a.m.

you get nothing without hard work | 2005-06-13

hello! am tidying up my room today and discovered i have amazing notes for A levels. can't let them go to waste, so gonna pimp them abit. I AM PLANNING ON SELLING THESE:

*note: do not read following blog entry if you are not planning to take A levels anytime in your life.

history - international and european history. fully typed summarised notes by me on each topic, complete with quotes/important arguments from other historians, collated from various history readings. you never have to do another reading again! will throw in very very good essay outlines/model essays for almost every single possible question cambridge might ask (and you all know this is whats gonna get you your A), and for international history, will throw in NJC notes (dont worry i understand the state of rj's notes. nj's one rock! very comprehensive! all credit goes to phil)

literature - texts done: silas marner (george eliot), john donne's romantic and religious poetry, decline and fall (evelyn waugh), passage to india (em forster), translations (brian friel), measure for measure (shakespeare). includes fully ANNOTATED texts by me. just read it and you never have to listen in class again. will provide you with great essays (all B+ and above) too, so you can copy them and get amazing essay grades. will also throw in lecture notes, very good notes from teachers, and model essays from darling friends. OH. and that includes great Practical Criticism notes/essays. guaranteed at least a B in PC after reading these notes. will provide general poetry criticism books and john donne poetry criticism books too.

literature s level - texts done: nabokov's lolita, golding's lord of the flies, fitzgerald's great gatsby, wilde's picture of dorian grey and salinger's catcher in the rye. dont really have any notes on them (alright you know i'm a slacker at lit s), but have amazing lit s PC notes. can also throw in piece of paper in which i wrote comparison of major themes and quotes among these 5 books. very good summary! (but will not be of any use unless you happened to choose to do the same 5 books as me, hahaha)

economics - OKAY THIS IS THE AMAZING ONE. have essay outlines of EVERY single question cambridge ever set. econs is damn easy if you know how to write a good essay. same goes for drq, hence will provide model DRQs + case studies. will throw in sloman's textbook, malcom frost's essay guidebook, all my TYS (yearly and topical), and my handwritten summarised econs notes for each and every topic. if you suck at MCQ, can throw in my MCQ book with the correct answers plus tuition teacher's explanation on why those answers are correct. THROW ALL YOUR RJ NOTES AWAY. nothing compares to this.

mathematics - you go and practise yourself la.

YEAH BABY. it is very hard for me to put a price on these things, but i am selling my notes for: $200 for literature (texts included), $150 for history, $250 for econs (texts + textbooks + tys included), $50 for lit s (precious books NOT provided). prices negotiable, but only if you want to pay me more hahaha. sorry if its abit ex. i slacked in JC for 2 years, and only studied a quarter of these notes for A levels for 1 month, and i got A A A A (and Merit for lit s), so you know how great they are.

email me at browneyesuperfly@gmail.com if interested. quick contact me cos you know they are of high demand and very very very low supply. prelims are coming up right! if you're like me and am panicking like fuck now (i ended up skipping prelims), no worries. just get your ass down to studying my notes properly and i guarantee you'll get at least a B in lit, history and econs. no joke :) $600 isn't too much to pay for a great future in life. hahahaha. (plus you get to own something i once owned. value is immediately multiplied by infinity. HO HO.)




n/b: of course, my notes can only help so much. to move from a B to an A you need what is a combination of hard work, BRAINS, and good luck. good luck!

kiss me quick!! at 3:10 p.m.

wild child | 2005-06-09

boo! shoot me for being a photowhore, but i'm just too sian to really blog online these days, haha. and everyone loves looking at pictures don't they? :)

tadah! what happened in the last week:

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thursday:

over at leonie's studio. he's so cute he fell asleep and that hand you see there is sean's, pinching his butt. haha.

and the guys very cooperatively posed for our tees ;) you can check out our tee shirt site for more of these model pics. thats bang and derryn looking like fabulous models, haha

now sean is slightly less cooperative

and so is levan. i like this pic though, not because of anything, but cos i think it looks artistic haha

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friday:

clubbing with leo and electrico at rouge cos amanda had a dj set that night. thats leonard and dan from electrico you see sprawling across the couch. tsktsk! but i like this pic too, we all look like we're having so much fun! :)

yeah don't ask. we were so high... thats me you see on yun's lap. hahaha i don't remember taking any of these pics baby.

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sunday:

mahjong party at dino's. varoon (actually i have no idea how to spell his name haha) is pimping the vodka while pq is pimping the umm.. mahjong tile?!

as always, we all got high, so that explains the badly taken photos, haha.

yeah we got them to do the teeshirt model thing too ;)

help im sandwiched between dino and varoon!

pq and ron

alright isn't this just AMAZING. alvin the giant's 1.98m. he can barely fit under that doorway oh gosh! he used to be 2.03m, until he shrank.

thats me with my new swiss boyfriend! haha. dino's my new toy boy if you don't already know ;p (and both of us are terribly narcissistic, as you can tell)

pq me din

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yesterday:

okay i think this pic is funny! my hickey ended up being the focus of the photo. wtf. (and we're all matured adults so i don't mind putting this up, though hickeys are terribly 1990s, hahaha)

over at hideout with the girlies

caught the gig by moods and samanta in support of terence. nice ambience isn't it? :)

ooh so artistic! thats me, and i look so androgenous and ugly, but never mind haha

high sensitivity mode on my camera turns out pretty right?

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a shot of my desk at work. yup! i am working! or rather, i workED temporarily at this place in raffles city yesterday and today. thank god it only lasted 2 days. was pretty horrible; for the whole day, they made me fold thousands of letters to put into envelopes. talk about maximising potential, haha :)

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alright thats about it for now! for those who asked, yeah i chose SMU's double degree business management + psychology (probably) in the end. it comes with a scholarship too, yay. i don't have to justify my choice to anyone (even though everyone says "i knew it!" when i tell them my choice), and i believe ultimately uni life is what you make of it.

so yup, wish me luck there :) tell me if you know anyone going into my courses, and also tell them about me! warn them about the horrible menace going into their school. BWA HAHAHAHA!!!!!!!! kidding. love you all muack.

kiss me quick!! at 8:07 p.m.

wham bam thank you ma'am | 2005-06-07

due to popular demand, here's the email from anon. (yup you're right, the police report doesn't sound like something i would do - levan the knight in shining armour helped me with everything. but hey anon, it's effective isn't it?) :)




"From: Jonathan Richardson (richardjon1987@yahoo.co.uk)

May 31

Dear Clara

So sorry that this was taken so far. It was just a joke. Anyway you have my apology here.

Hope you know tht I sincerely didn't mean to blow this out of proportion, just thts what happens when people read wrongly into something.

I linked to you through a blog search and I thouht you were cute.

Jon"




dear jon: its alright, i'm cool with it. hope you find something better to do with your life next time than trying to antagonise strangers over the internet, sweetie :)

to my darling friends: sorry that showtime's over! maybe you can try to provoke new low-life anons but then the police'll start being on their case and that's real scary isn't it. hahahaha.

kiss me quick!! at 1:01 a.m.

wouldn't it be nice | 2005-06-02

if a shark came up to bite you, you can say i'm chocolate i'll invite you!

hello! as i always say - a picture paints a thousand words, so i shall shut up and show you pics from the cruise!!! it was the funnest thing ever!!!!!! (i've only uploaded about about 60 pics, out of the 200++ that we took. i don't know if thats a good thing or a bad thing, haha)

tadah! just before embarking the ship. yeah i know thats alot of luggage for a 2 day cruise :)

our first dinner on board! posh ain't it. we're trying to look like taitais, hahaha.

pq is in her new dinner gown. haha no kidding, she actually draped the napkin over herself cos we were trying to take a pic of her HUMONGOUS cleavage!!! HAHAHA.

a shot in the elevator just for kicks, haha

checking out the ship's disco. why is it so empty??

so me and halimama decided to dance!

out on the deck. ooh i just love the sea breeze and the night sky :)

a pretty shot of the ship's pool lounge from above

decked out on the pool chairs, wish we had a ciggie. only pretending to smoke cos we're such good girls!!!

me and hali got carried away

racial harmony, hehehe. pq and halimama!

pretty night shot of the chicks.

we celebrated hali's bday on board! HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY! we bluffed her that her present was a pair of slippers though, and look at that sad forced grin on her face, hahahaha.

then we made her do a treasure hunt around the ship in search of her real pressie! yeah i was trying to act like a very good detective :)

smile! she was damn bad at treasure hunt la, haha

we woke up early the next morning for some sun! you only see three of us cos pq the pig was still sleeping away

check the sea out! i think this pic's so nice

morning tea with crossiants, doughnuts and the sea!! yum yum.

decked out on the pool chair once again, waiting for pq to wake up lalalala. loving the sun.

doesn't the water just look gorgeous!

having lunch!! seriously i think we spent the most time on the ship eating - breakfast, morning tea, double lunch, afternoon tea, double dinner, supper. okay wtf.

okay you see? the kids hard at work! :)

the gradient of skin color. i found it so amusing, hahaha. oh and pq wants you to surrender the booty please?

ooooh after lunch soak in the jacuzzi. how absolutely lovely!!!!! this is the life baby!!! and where's our darling pq???

oh ya, there she is. she got her period so she couldn't come in. bwahahaha. i think this pic is so cute :)

me suntanning with my ipod! yup you guessed it, i was nude. not :p

taking a dip in the gorgeous pool!

me and pq and this hot italian girl we picked up, hohohoho.

at the kids pool!!!! it looks so fun i badly wanted to play there, too bad the horrid lifeguard didnt allow me to :(

at the pool, on the stage where cruise bands usually perform. yup we were trying to act cool, and failing terribly. hahaha. but i like this pic too! :)

alright man check out cherylenie's tan lines. gosh amazing!!

we came back to our room to find a cake the cruise staff left for halimama! aww how sweet.

ooh. all dressed up for dinner! the ship's lobby's pretty isnt it?

the four of us :)

out on the ship's deck. how amazingly gorgeous! and i think the three of them look gorgeous too :)

okay i admit this is silly. we were trying to copy the painting, hahaha. check out hali's bored can-you-guys-please-get-a-life look.

bbq by the pool!!!! what a nice evening atmosphere! :)

check out the live band behind playing beachy songs! how lovely

pq kissing the lobster

in the karaoke lounge! those guys sitting with us were the same ah bengs who lent us suntan oil in the day, hahahah.

me, halimama and my iced strawberry daiquiri :)

OKAY. i think this pic is seriously hilarious!! check out the scared expression on all our faces cos it was illegal to take pics in the casino. omg what a joke. hahahahahaha.

we rented mahjong and brought it onto the deck to play the whole of our last night!!!!! (until we finally succumbed to sleepiness la, haha)

WHEW. okay finally done!!!!!! haha think i shan't blog for a couple of days to let the whole weight of the pics sink in. byebyebyebyebyebaby!

kiss me quick!! at 2:59 a.m.